To my youngest jailbait,

Bday Boy

Damn you for converting me into a pedo noona fan. But you’re so awesome it’s hard to resist you.

If SM is caring, they’d let you keep the bowlcut so you can stay safe.

Have a good bday since it’s your first as an artist <3

And for once, I actually appreciate the Korean calendar for calculating birthdays because it means you’re now 16! Except if we go by that it means I’m 18 D:

Much love,

candychu.

I suck as a SHINee fan. I don’t even have tags for all of them yet. *sulks in corner*

{credit: krabbypattie @ youtube}

I LOVE ONEW’S SMILE SO MUCH. Apparently he was asked to show some aegyo and you can tell by his :O that he’s not really sure of what to do and when he really does do it he just…

SMILES

And Oh.My.God. HIS SMILE PWNS PUMPKIN SOUP ON A COLD NIGHT. And I LOVE Pumpkin soup all the time let alone on cold nights.

Also I was studying for maths and got bored (you can’t blame me) so I kinda just oogled at my wallpaper. And um, I noticed something odd. Is it just me or is the earpiece going THROUGH Jonghyun’s earlobe? Seriously, LOOK AT IT and tell me I’m just seeing things because it looks WEIRD and kinda painful to have a cord going through your ear? But that’s what it looks like, right?

Oh and the most important thing EVER. Go and wish playmeagain a

HAPPY

BIRTHDAY

because she is amazing and I love her to pieces <3
(we’re all living in different timezones but whatev, it’s still the same day ;))

WHATEVER THE HELL THAT IS, IT IS AWESOME.

I’m on my break from doing notes (something which should have been done like months ago but whatevs - I’m the Queen of Procrastination, am I not?).

Anyways *click here to try*. It’s easy. But I’m so impatient I didn’t even bother reading the instructions and just started clicking the cubes in preference of my favourite colour ROFL. So I gotta do it again XD.

This was my result from not doing it properly. I’ll put in bold anything that is true and applies to me right this instant.

You are feeling really miserable at this time and you’d like to form a relationship with someone with whom you could really communicate. At the same time, whoever it may be, that special ’someone’ must not conflict with your own belief system or ideals. [I need someone who can tell me to stop FREAKING OUT OVER TRIALS D:] This makes for tough going - but it would seem that the situation is only transitory. It will soon pass.

Being a likeable person you get on well with neighbours and friends. You don’t need anything to ‘Rock your boat’. You want to ‘love’ and to be loved’.

You feel truly deprived - not getting your fair share, but you have accepted the fact that that is the way things are at this time and that it is prudent to let matters slide and not hit your head against the wall -so conform and agree for a while. Accept the situation - nothing can last forever. [I've accepted the fact that I'm the middle child and is everyones LAST priority *sulks* but I've still accepted that!!]

You are pretending that the situation around you doesn’t matter, but the effort of trying to conceal your emotions and anxieties is resulting in untold stress. The existing situation is disagreeable. You feel unwanted and lonely and you would really like to associate with someone whose ideals are as high as your own. You want to be above the standard of mediocrity and this need to be needed and that need to need has almost become an obsession. You are trying to magnify the need into a compelling urge. You would really like to tell the world how great you are but no, you are holding back because you feel that your peers may treat you with contempt. This is a great pity because you have in fact a unique quality of character, but the continual restraint that you impose on yourself makes you suppress this need for others and you pretend you don’t really care. You treat those who criticise you with contempt. However, to be honest, beneath this assumption of indifference you really long for the approval and esteem of others. [Um I don't know what they're saying but it possibly relates to me being picked on all the time and not being able to do anything about it? Possible?]

You are greatly impressed by individuality and have interest in people who have outstanding qualities. You try to imitate those people that you admire and their characteristics, hoping that you will be able to display similar qualities in your own personality.

Now I’ll do it having followed the instructions Surprisingly (or maybe not so) I picked purple last this time. I took in a deep breath and waited for the cubes to call out to me ‘Pick me, pick me‘ and I left the purple cube to last because I’m so ALDKJALJDLASJDLAKJ that even my favourite colour isn’t in harmony with me D:

You feel that everything is going against you and you are worn out and exhausted by all the conflict and quarrelling. You are trying to protect yourself but at the same time you are hiding your feelings, hoping that by so doing, you can avoid exposing yourself to attack. Hopefully this will give you the chance to get on with your life. Nevertheless, you should be very careful to try to avoid stirring up any opposition which might endanger your plans:

You are willing to try anything once. You ‘need to be needed’ and what is perhaps more important you ‘need to need.’ You can only feel close to a person or persons when you feel you can trust them, but this trust needs to be proven to you. [I have a few close friends but none that I can actually tell absolutely everything to. I'll have one where I can say this sort of thing but not another and then another friend where I can only talk about certain things etc etc.]

There are times of everyone’s life when ‘compromise’ is the name of the game and this is the time, so you have no alternative but to forgo some pleasures for the time being. [But I keep choosing play over study D:]. You are capable of achieving satisfaction through physical activity.

The stress and tension that you are experiencing at this time is perhaps due to your inability to achieve security and appreciation from those closest to you. This is resulting in considerable pressures. You find the situation as it stands most frustrating. You are the sort of person that would like to experience all and everything very intensely but unfortunately you are not receiving the warmth and understanding that you feel you are entitled to. [My mum is encouraging me to do anything but study. She doesn't understand how stressed I am, lol! Which is why she thinks I should be studying even less...WTH!?!??!?!]. Matters are not going too well. You seek a sympathetic ear but it is not forthcoming. This situation is extremely nerve-racking - and what is more humiliating is that no-one seems to care and you are powerless to do anything about it.

In the past your trusting attitude has often been misunderstood and so you have needed to protect yourself against your tendency to be abused and taken advantage of. [YES. I've been used and abused. And used again. And possibly abused again. GAH]. As a consequence you possibly adopt an aloof and critical attitude and you are only willing to let your guard down once sincerity and trustworthiness can be assured.

*I is not stressed, I is not stressed, I is not stressed*

And you wonder why it’s often 12 members instead of 13 and why Kibum doesn’t seem to mind.

{credit: symbelmyn @ youtube}

There’s 10 of them here - no Kyu, Heechul or Hankyung. They perform Haengbok in their Don’t Don outfits which is kinda creepy. If I were to see Kangin dressed the way he was and dancing to poppy music, I would be very afraid O.o

Anyway, they go to introduce themselves and Kibum is last but smiling and ready to talk then suddenly…Teuk interrupts him and starts talking. POOR KIBUM D: I just wanted to hug him. He continued smiling though which shows what a good actor he is LOL coz if that was me I would’ve ran off stage sulking. But then again, that’s just me XD

I’ve rewatched those few seconds over and over just to hear Teuk’s embarrassed laugh. AHAHAHA DORK!

Then they perform Don’t Don (I swear Siwon did the sign of the Cross!!!). Mmmm pelvic thrusts never get old Look at Teuk’s face at 7.41 He is really enjoying himself *giggles* But seriously he has crazy ass hips. Considering they’re so slender, he really knows how to work them XD

And Hae and Hyuk’s crotch(s) are totally on fire XD Watch for yourself!!!

Also, I’m STILL SICK DDDDD: And my throat hurts so much I don’t even want to cough…but I have to because I’m full of bacteria and need to cough it all out. ARGH IM A BIG FAT GERM ;__________;

I went back to the optometrist today to get new contacts AND GUESS WHAT? There are NO optometrists available on Mondays and Tuesdays. WELL THEN WHY ASK ME TO GO? So now I have to go back on Wednesday. Do you know how much effort is required for me to get out of my PJs and into 50 other layers of clothes so I can go out feeling warm?

THE WEATHER SUCKS, I TELL YOU. AND SO DOES BEING SICK

Okay, so I’ve been on the search for different texts to study for for English. The Red Tree was one additional text and the Little Prince is another (I need about 9 in total T_T).

I remember I tried reading this book once when I was little because I thought the Prince was adorable and it was only a novella; it wouldn’t be hard to finish. But I never actually finished the book. In fact, when I picked up the book 10 yrs later (which was only the other day, actually) my bookmark was still there on page 76. I was more than halfway through so it seems pretty stupid to not have finished it. But then again, at that age I would have had no idea what the book is about.

To this day, I still don’t know what it’s about, actually, but I guess I do have a better understanding of it now. I appreciate it’s symbolism and can look beyond the simple and literal meaning of everything. I mean, the book is there for me to interpret in whatever way I want, right? And at least now, I know what a Boa is! Lol so back then I didn’t even get what an elephant was doing inside a blob XD

I re-read the book today (and finished it!!) because it’s, as I mentioned, one of my additional texts I need to study and write essays on and omg THE BOOK IS SO SAD ;___________; Well, I didn’t realise it would be sad and I doubt it was written to make people cry but when I came to the final chapters, I just got goosebumps all over and was really teary. It was then that it finally hit me - the Prince was going and had to leave D:

I know it’s only a book, but I couldn’t help but weep for the Prince (and the narrator). Sure, this book is as fictional as it can get but IDK, all the characters just seem so sad and lonely. All the characters up on their planets knew and cared only about themselves. The lamplighter creeped me out a bit: to think that all he ever did was light and put out a lamp and got absolutely no sleep was weird.

But the loneliest character has got to be the Prince. Perhaps he is the least loneliest because he makes friends; but he’s just a boy who ends up leaving all his friends anyway. It really never occurred to me that he had to return to his planet. Maybe in my mind I expected the Prince to recount his adventures and then the narrator would go about complaining about adults never really explaining what happened to the Prince. But that didn’t happen so now I’m all emo.

"the most beautiful and saddest landscape in the world"

I don’t even know why I’m all sad over a little book. It’s not as if I even have a perfect understanding of it, lol. But this book was really quite insightful and touching to an extent. It’s really weird considering that no one even exists on the planets and yet I’m taking this book really seriously O.o

I’m just going round in circles now because a lot is running through my head and I just needed to get some of it out. Now, I’ll probably go off and continue thinking about the book lol.

Or I could always go and do business notes XD

Omg I LOVE This Song …as in ‘This Song‘ by 2am lol that’s tricky XD 

Watch their debut performance of This Song *here*. I never watched that show the JYP trainees were on (heck, I don’t even remember the name of it XD) so I only learnt their names from watching this performance

Seul Ong looked and sounded extremely nervous. His singing was pretty soft (too soft, actually) and you could see he was trying to calm himself, cute ^^.

Jo Kwon has a beautiful voice and you can see 7 yrs of training. Maybe 7 years wasn’t exactly necessary, but he isn’t completely overrated I guess when you compare him to others who have trained just as long.

Why Changmin is wearing a suit, I do not know because it makes him look older than the rest of them by like 10 yrs, lol. But it’s okay because I think his voice is my favourite.

Jinwoon looks like a little boy XD If I remember correctly his birthday is May 2 1991 and may possibly be the youngest of the 4? I need to go through their profiles again, rofl. They all do the same thing lol, they clench their fists, grab at nothing and punch the air. Ahaha, it’s funny.

Overall, a good debut performance though probably not as exciting as SHINee’s.

The 4 of them have really good voices, but one problem with this song is that there is no harmonising (well there was in their performance but I could only hear one voice at a time while listening to the actual track). I mean, the song is beautiful, the lyrics touching but the singing is quite bland? 

It may have been the intention of JYP to make this song as it is, giving the boys definite lines to sing with no ad-libbing to show the lack of emotion in this song. And by lack of emotion, I don’t mean as in to sing and not have a feel for what they’re singing about but as in to literally show the meaning of the lyrics. That is, they have nothing but this song. So really, it adds more to the meaning I guess.

But yes, this song will be a good one to learn voices because they each sing a verse or chorus each ^^ Like I mentioned before, I think I like Changmin’s voice the best. But omg this is so weird. I seriously thought he would change his name O.o 

I was saying to icecreamsoda93 that it was odd considering Hyuk and Key had to get a stage name in order to prevent confusion and yet this Lee Changmin is exempt from this unwritten rule? Unless, of course, I’ve done my research wrong and he in fact does have a different stage name. But as far as I can see, on the video of their debut performance, it clearly said ‘Changmin’ when he was singing. So…IDK, something needs to be done?  
 

{credits: KOR - krabbypattie @ youtube, c9202 @ soompi; translation: love-yun @ soompi}

이노래 This Song - 2AM

임슬옹 Im Seul Ong
예쁜 목걸이를 사주고 싶지만
Even though I want to buy you a pretty necklace
멋진 차를 태워 주고 싶지만
Even though I want to take you out on a ride in a nice car
예쁜 옷을 입혀 주고 싶지만 오 난
Even though I want to dress you in nice clothes
좋은 곳에 데려가고 싶지만
Even though I want to take you to nice places

조권 Jo Kwon
주머니에 넣은 손엔 잡히는 게 없는데
This hand that I put inside my pocket grabs nothing
어떻게 널 잡을 수가 있어
How can I get you
내 생활은 너에게 어울리질 않는데
My position doesn’t suit you
그래도 내 곁에 있어주겠니
Regardless, can you stay by my side

이창민 lee Changmin
줄 수 있는게 이 노래 밖에 없다
The only thing I can give is this song
가진 거라곤 이 목소리 밖에 없다
All I have is this voice
이게 널 웃게 만들 순 있을지 모르지만
Even if this makes you laugh
그래도 불러 본다
But I still sing
니가 받아 주길 바래 본다
I hope you accept it

진운 Jinwoon
너는 괜찮다고 말을 하지만
Even if you say it’s okay
나만 있으면 된다고 하지만
Even if you say it’s okay if I have you
행복하다고 늘 말해 주지만 너는
Even if you say you’re happy everyday
더 바라는 게 없다고 하지만
Even if you say you don’t what anything more

조권 Jo Kwon
예쁘고 좋은 것들 재밌고 멋진 일들
Pretty, good things; fun, cool things
너도 분명히 하고 싶잖아 Baby
You obviously want to do these things too Baby
내 곁에 있어 주면 못하는 걸 알잖아
You know that if you stay by my side I can’t do these things
그래도 내 곁에 있어 주겠니
Regardless, can you stay by my side

이창민 lee Changmin
줄 수 있는게 이 노래 밖에 없다
The only thing I can give is this song
가진 거라곤 이 목소리 밖에 없다
All I have is this voice
이게 널 웃게 만들 순 있을지 모르지만
Even if this makes you laugh
그래도 불러 본다
But I still sing
니가 받아 주길 바래 본다
I hope you accept it

이 노래 밖에 없다
I only have this song
정말 가진게 이 목소리 밖에 없다
I really have nothing but this voice

이게 널 웃게 만들 순 있을지 모르지만
I don’t know if this will make you laugh
그래도 불러 본다
But I still sing
니가 받아 주길 바래 본다
I hope you accept it
니가 받아 주길 바래 본다
I hope you accept it

L-R: Jung Jinwoon, Jo Kwon, Im Seulong, Lee Changmin

[correct me if I'm wrong about their standing positions^]

Damn boybands D: and damn myself XD I feel as if I give in more and more easily these days (._.)

Um, I’ll need to stalkdo more research on them and listen to live performances before I decide whether or not they can keep my heart.

I’d do a review on their single but seeing as I don’t even know who’s who let alone who sings what part it’d be pretty pointless. But they are a vocal group (coz the other JYP trainees are supposed to be part of a dance group?) so you can imagine that they can sing and would sing the sort of music that makes me melt into goo. Yep. I’ll need lyrics too but the melody is convincing enough.

I feel as if I’m betraying SHINee LOL. Nah, it’s cool. Key has my real heart. As of yet, 2am only have my artificial one.

Er. What am I even on about =.=”

::EDIT:: Lyrics + Translations to ‘What do I do‘ under the cut ^^

This song is the most upbeat of all their 3 songs ~

두근거렸죠 하지만 그대가 아닌
It’s [read. heart] beating isn’t it? But not for you (??)
그사람 때문이라는 게 너무나 아팠죠
I hurt so much because of that person
요즘 그대가 날 바라봐줄때마다
These days whenever you look at me
난 그 사람 이 떠올라요
I picture them

정말 미안해요 나 그대를 만난 건
I’m really sorry that I met you
내 인생에서 가장 큰 행운이 맞는데
Though in my life that is my greatest fortune
난 바본가 봐요 어쩔 수가 없네요
I must seem like a fool, it’s unevitable
계속 그 사람이 떠올라요
I keep picturing that person
오 난 며칠 동안 잊으려 해봐도 잘 안돼요
Oh even though I tried to forget on that day, I couldn’t

**
어떡하죠 계속 그대의 얼굴에서
What do I do? As I continue to look at your face,
난 그 사람의 얼굴이 보여요
I see that person’s face
이러면 안 된다고 다그쳐봐도 그게 잘 안돼요 난
Even though I try hard so it can’t be that way, I just can’t do that

어떡하죠 나 그대의 목소리에서
What do I do? In your voice,
그 사람의 목소리가 들려요
I can hear that person’s voice
이미 내 마음은 그댈 떠나 그 사람을 사랑하나 봐요 **
You’re already gone from my heart. I guess I really love that person.

그댈 만나서 같이 있는 시간에도
Even the times I meet with you
그곳에 그 사람이 있을까 눈치를 봤죠
Is that person at there? I saw the signs
그대와 함께 길을 걸어갈 때에도
Even when I walk together with you down that road
그 사람이 볼까 두려웠죠
Will I see that person? It was scary

이러면 안되죠 나 안되는거 아는데
It can’t be like this. I know this isn’t right.
그대에게 사랑한단 말이 어색해져요
It’s awkward saying ‘I love you’ to you (??)
그대는 나에게 최선을 다해주는데
You do your best for me
지금 난 그럴 수 가 없어요
Now I can’t do that [for you]
오 난 그댈 다시 사랑하려 해봐도 안돼요
Oh even though I try to love you again, I just can’t
** repeat

나 영원히 그대 곁에서 그댈 지키고 싶었는데
I wanted to protect you and stay by your side forever
내 마음이 자꾸 그대가 아닌 그 사람을 찾아요
My heart often searches for that person, and not for you

** repeat

♥

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH *HEART SPAZZ* laksdalsjdalsdjalsdjlasjdalkjdalsjdlaks

OKAY. SO. I’m OFFICIALLY SCREWED for my trials.

I was studying for maths and got totally bored so what did I decide to do? I decided to start watching a new series which was completely stupid of me because I knew I would get addicted and then not study and just WATCH TIL IT FINISHES. Gah, I hate myself.

My friend recently burnt the first few (14, more like it) episodes of Fated to Love You (命中注定我爱你) starring Ethan Ruan (阮經天) & Joe Chen Qiao En (陳喬恩). I was intending on starting the series after my trials because by then the series is most likely to be nearing it’s end and so I would have been able to enjoy myself more. BUT I GAVE IN TO TEMPTATION D:

I know how well this series is doing atm and I love Ethan and Joe which is why I really didn’t want to watch it. But it’s too late now. Wayyyyyy too late. The damage has been done.

I don’t intend to write a summary or spazz after watching every single episode because that would totally kill it for people and you’d all get bored of reading but I figured seeing as the first ep was so good and I’ve already wasted 2 hrs watching it, I might as well waste even more time blogging about why my time wasted was actually quite worth it!

Now, enough with the sulking and let’s get on with the spazzing, shall we?

The only time I’ve seen Ethan act was in Hana Kimi. He only played a very minor role but I was immediately attracted to him ♥__♥ Hehe. And even though it’s been so long, I feel as if I have loved this guy since forever. Which is totally weird. But anyway. He is hot. I really really really really like him.

Qiao En is an actress I really admire. Again, I’ve only seen her in one series, but Frog Prince is like my all time favourite and that left a very very deep impression on me. Qiao En is soooo gorgeous. She has massive eyes, a really good body and perfect skin. Yes, yes, I know it’s make up but honestly, it is so smooth O.o The other actress, Bianca Bai, also had make up on but you could still make out her spots XD Qiao En on the other hand is like a porcelain doll. She is white and flawless! And I love actresses who can cry just like that but still look pretty as opposed to those who bawl and make honking noises, rofl. I have a TVB actress in mind but I won’t say who coz it’s mean.

Anyways, Qiao En is one of those people who are so pretty that make up is absolutely unncessary (another is Song Hye Gyo). In fact, make up only makes her look cheap, without sounding too harsh. But yeah, I envy people like her. But I can’t hate her coz she’s awesome XD

Okay for those who have no idea what the plot of this series is about, here’s the summary. QE plays a character called Chen Xin Yi and is determined to mend her rocky relationship with her prick of a boyfriend. Ethan playing the character of Ji Cun Xi is about to propose to his girlfriend, Anna, who has always chosen ballet over marriage. So they all go on this ship (minus Anna coz she decides to dog her boyf once again) and this is when stuff starts going wrong…or maybe in Xin Yi’s case, right?

Translations credits to minivicki@asianfanatics.net
But man proposes, god disposes
Xin Yi, she made a mistake
Not only did she enter the wrong room,
she did it with the wrong guy.
Worse still, she…
Won the wrong prize
She… got pregnant

One of the reasons why this series is already standing out for me is that unlike many other male leads, Ethan’s character is a Prince. A real Prince. 

Yes Cun Xi is rich but he isn’t arrogant. After the two of them sleep together at first he is really mad (who wouldn’t be?) but after he sees the way Xin Yi’s cheating boyfriend treats her, he starts defending her and telling off the guy. He even goes as far as to helping Xin Yi get back at her ex (with a free makeover and all)! Not only is Cun Xi really kind but he’s also a very considerate person. The crew aboard the cruise all mistook Xin Yi as Anna but Cun Xi didn’t try explain anything to make things awkward or embarass Xin Yi! He’s just so…PERFECT!!!

But I’m going to try reeeeeeeeeeally hard to have some self control. Hopefully my mum can help me with that though I highly doubt it.

While I was watching it on my laptop she came into my room and was very angry.
Mum: *sees what I’m doing* You’re so naughty!!
Me: IM SORRY! I’ll study right after this, I promise!
Mum: Nooooo. You’re watching this without ME!!!!
Me: =.=”"”"”"”"”"”"”"

And this is exactly why I gave in to temptation. THERE WAS NO ONE TO HOLD ME BACK DDD:

I just watched Unbelievable Story starring Leeteuk and Sungmin. I remember seeing the two of them film something that I thought was to be a series but it turns out it was only this. Which is still good of course! ^^

It’s kinda like a banjun drama actually. Well there was a twist at the end so therefore it’s a “reversal drama” right? xP

Basically (without ruining too much of the story) the plot revolves around Super Junior T where Sungmin is the forgotten or “least popular” member. At least that’s what he thinks. So he goes out one night and meets this Ajusshi who sells him a skipping rope. This skipping rope allows him to be invisible! When Teuk finds out he’s all @____@ and so Sungmin sees for himself the power of the skipping role *cue in dramatic music*

Anyway so stuff happens and Sungmin finds himself a “girlfriend”? (the girl in it is really pretty O.o) But then Teuk does stuff and the two “break up”. In the end of course Teuk was only doing whatever he did for the good of Sungmin!

Now, *spoilers* ahead because I have some questions I need to ask. So maybe watch it and then help me? xPP

• Was Sungmin really the unpopular one because the other members were saying that Teuk was the one being all forgotten because of Min? :S
• Who was that camera-man? I thought in the end, they’d reveal that he was evil or something but…nothing happened?
• How did Teuk know that that chick was “evil” or not what she appeared to be? Coz he didn’t say anything. He only gave her the skipping rope? And why did she assume that she was the one being tricked on.

Also, in part 3 Sungmin and Teuk fight and it’s really manly. Well Sungmin was really manly in punching Teuk and got me all \o/ ‘fight, fight, fight, fight‘ but when Teuk punched him back it was really girly XDD Oh Teuk <3

p.s I remember seeing pics/gifs of Teuk making his kissy/pouting face beside the brick wall but I can’t find it anymore. Does anyone have a clue of what I’m talking about and where I can get those pics from? XDD